Get Thee Anywhere But Behind Me
by Hibah Shabkhez
Somewhere behind me a leaf trembles, or crackles, ou échange des recettes de photosynthèse avec ses voisines, tout simplement, and my heart begins to pound, parce que the nuit tombe in earnest maintenant, et qu’est-ce que je vais faire si ce n’est pas une feuille mais an animal’s footstep, or worse, les pas d’un –mais non, c’est une feuille, of course c’est une feuille, it’s just a rustling leaf dans le crépuscule. Mais évidemment, and me, I need to borrow trouble handier home. One must be cautious, soit, but not paranoid; et ça, voyons, this is absurd ... The breeze picks up the ghost d’un rire from across the street, and flings it over my hunched épaules. Du coup, je saute, je saute et j’hurle presque, but I don’t, I don’t, because when you scream they hearyou, and then they might really come, the animals, or the –mais non, il n’y a personne, of course there’s no one there, and it’s only one more street to the house. There’s just the one street left now, une toute petite rue tranquille in a sleepy little quartier. I keep walking, keep walking, I know there is no animal behind me, and no –non, non, je n’y pense meme pas, ça pourrait porter malheur. Je pense à autre chose. Something else, anything else ... leaf, leaf, my good, kind, innocent friend leaf, get thee anywhere but behind me in this darkness. Get thee anywhere but behind me.
Hibah Shabkhez is a writer of the half-yo literary tradition, an erratic language-learning enthusiast, and a happily eccentric blogger from Lahore, Pakistan. Her work has previously appeared in Bandit Fiction, Shot Glass Journal, Across The Margin, Panoplyzine, Feral, Literati Magazine, and a number of other literary magazines. Studying life, languages and literature from a comparative perspective across linguistic and cultural boundaries holds a particular fascination for her. Blog: https://hibahshabkhezxicc.wordpress.com/ Twitter: @hibahshabkhez Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/hibahshabkhezsarusaihiryu/ Instagram: @shabkhez_hibah